Unforgetable day

 Yesterday 6 dec 2020 was an unforgetable  day.

We were on our way to btu when our front tyre punctured - RR..It was unexpected cos we just had the car serviced the day before our trip. To make the matter worst ..one of the nut was so tight plus the opener was unfunctional..maybe due to the mis-used by the previous mechanic or by some random w/shop.

It was quite challenging to all of us.We were there at Bukit Bangunan for almost 4 hrs. We stood under the sun and rain..waiting for the guy , who came all the way from Sri Aman to help. He was a very patient man name Ah Haw. He ask for RM190...then he said RM150...after he saw how pity  we must have been (maybe)..but Pa gave him double of what he asked. Well..he deserved it.

So having fixed the the opener..we got our spare tyre on. We can't continue the journey to btu..cos we can't get our punctured tyre fixed in Lachau. So we head back to kuching.

Actually the trip was not that bad, but a good experience for all of us.

So in future if we want to go on the road trip, we don't just only service the car, we must make sure that all tyres including the spare are road worthy. In addition we also must bring along the right tools and even hammer to knock anything. 

Lucky for us that this whole incidents happened where we can parked our car at the road side and it was still broad daylight.  It could be worst if it is at night and out of no where.

In this situation , praying was not that helpful , cos i was praying all the time and nothing good comes out of it...or maybe God have better plan...to just fly. 

So be it.....

Plan B...we fly on wed 9th Dec.

God have mercy this time. Amen.

Mother's Day

What's the meaning of Mother's DAy!

To me mother day is everyday.
From morning to night,
No fixed working hours,
No leave, ,
No joke and there is No such thing as retired.

Ever since I became a mum I do think that was the best job/experience ever. Even if it would mean staying up whole day and night and without endless working hours. I still felt it was all worthwhile and I am proud of myself for doing just that for the past 26 years. I been through a lots of sweet and sour moments. At time, it was so wonderful and sometime it was so bitter.

It felt so nice when during bitter time a little word or gesture is enough to sooth the feeling. But that particular moment/expression was not met and it makes me felt so hurt inside. (Am sure all mothers felt the same way) Or even the smallest deeds would be nice.

Being excited is my style. Can't help it , but that's the way i will always be. So being a mum , my routine are full of excitement and joy.

So the best present a child can give to their mum would be just to say "Thank you for being my Mum." And always pray that I will live long enough to mastered my vocation as mother.

RIP celestine tze.

On 11 march 2011, we lost our most beloved brother Simau. (nickname) Up to date , we all still don't know How and Why he died. Everything are just based on "hearsay" only. It was a shocked to all of us. We just can't accept the fact that he is gone. Not just yet, cos it was too soon.(he was only 38 yrs old).
He left behind his wife and two wonderful sons.One is 9 years old and the other is just 6 . During his life as narrated by my mama he was always having a very tough one. He seldom comes around so much. Even to us whom is just nearby.

He was a very shy and" keep to himself" type of person.He don't talk much,he don't complained, he just don't bother about anything that is happening around him. He was just so contend with what he has and who he was.
Before i knew he had this stomach problem. I did offered to sent him for check -up but he refused.
All this while the reason why he would drink is because he is trying to eased the pain in the stomach. No wonder he was seen drinking all the time. So people around him would thought only that he was an alcoholic.

But actually this brother of ours is a very loving and caring man. He was my mama "anak mas". my mama loves him more than the rest. He was the second youngest in the family. He was also a very calculative man, he spent his money wisely. During his life, he owns a car, a laptop and even a house. The saddest part again is when he was not in time to move into his very owned house which he was in time to signed up a few weeks before he died.

Before he died he promised to bring the sons to KFC, but that wish, never come true as he went off before the treats.The sons awaits faithfully only to know that the "apai"will never comes back.

We all don't know when the lord will calls us back. All we have to do is to be prepare. Hoping that the time is when everything
has been done according to what we planned.

My Thoughts!

As a Mother.

Been thinking about this for quite sometime. After being a mother of eight I am wondering whether I have done what a mother supposed to do. Am I good, justify, ignorance, patience, loving, caring and responsible enough??????

Well .....I thought I've done everything a mother supposed to do.

But along the way I do experienced a lot of problems, misunderstandings and difficulties. Being a mother is never an easy task.(mark my words) Sometime its need a lot of sacrifices, commitments and above all patience.(which I am lacking)
Despite all this, I can tell/say/shared that its the most wonderful job ever. It's fun when we watched them all grow up - from a baby to a well grown up kids.( to witness their journey which is heading to the right path). Being able to know and do the right things, choices and friends. And it will be even more pleasing enough to see all of them finishing their studies, gotten a job and starts their own family. (not in the meantime of course).

You don't get paid for being a mother but the most valuable price will be when you get back all the loves at the end of the day.
As a mother. I deserved to be respected and honour for the rest of my life. So I believed they all do understand and knows/how what to do.

As for now, my prayers will be that God will continues to give me the graces to undertake my vocation as a Mother, With the help of my spouse who is always praying countlessly for me. My greatest respect and honour to him for being the greatest spouse.

Towards the end of each day , I will thanks the lord God almighty for being so kind and generous. I will be forever grateful .

The Gummy Bear Song - Long English Version

Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles

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