most unlikely ME!

I am not a cat lover. But this whole post will be about CAT.

Straycats like to come to our house.Sometime we also don't understand why.Recently, two cats gave birth at our compound.But soon after the first cat disappeared without a trace.So the kitten was left alone,dying of hunger.The kitten was passing away one by one.

Until one morning I just had a peek into the basin where the kittens was and to my whole heart content....I was filled with so much mercy when i saw the kittens was sucking each others ear(thinking it was their mother breast..i assumed)Right after that I made up my mind to find the other cat which is also giving birth almost the same week(also refused to feed her own kitten)So when I saw the cat, I lured her into the cage with FRISKIES. In the end I managed to gather all the kittens inside the cage with the mother.It was tough at first cos the cat just wont let the other kittens to suck on the breast. There was lots of drama in the cage then. The scenes enough to make kining cried.It took quite sometime for the mother and baby chemistry to take part.

A few hours later when I decided to peeked again to be sure that everything goes well then only I saw the babies starts sucking the mother's breast.I was so relieved.

So Still can't believe myself.I just saved the kittens.

False happiness VS true happiness

We were on the way to the airport sending dedek, then there goes papa with his speeches.It's like this.....

You know you people is so dependable on me...If without me around you all will fall straight down...down...down....(It's about our prayerlifeb)It's like we been lack of strength to pray. Which is very true indeed! Our mind is not focus on God our CreATOR, our sAVIOUR,OUR LORD.We been too caught up in this worldly happiness AKA false happiness(as St.paul quote it)The kids is so tense when it's time to pray.WHY?????

Now fingers all pointed to my direction. What can I say.I guess they are right.Blamed it on me..of course... cos that's the way it's always been. As a mother I should bring my whole family into prayers with or without the father around.

I used to do that before, but pa said "what the use when we all behaves like "WHAT".So we stop.If only i ignored and just continued, I believed by this time around we all would be better and be more prayerful.(SO WHO SUPPOSED TO BE BLAMED)

So true happiness means "A life full of grateful, meaningful and wholehearted prayers" coming straight from the heart without shame,guilt,fear and reserved, total surrender of heart,body,mind and soul.And this I beleived is just what I am going to do from now on. AMEN.

life goes on....

It's been quite a long time since i did not write anything in this blog.Not that i'm too busy but its seem to be the way things goes around nowadays.Time runs so fast that i just don't notice it.

Me turning 43, with my eighth son turns 18months. My eldest 24 years old this year.My husband will be 50 this 9august. Been married for almost 24 years, but I still look the same on the appearance especially my face.(proud of it-but that's the reality)
But not to mention the whole body,my backbone,my legs(with terrible varicose veins).I don't and I can't complain but i just have to live with it.

The only things that keep me going is the thought of having such a wonderful husband and a lots of children.I will always be very proud of myself for being able to produced many children. There has been lots of ups and down but we managed to pull through together.But I do feel tired now.....Sometimes its makes me angry to have to deal with so many daily routines.My duties seem to be endless.But again I still have to deal with it all somehow.

I always tell myself.... when the kids all growing up , I will spent the rest of my life following where ever my husband goes.He need not has to asks whether I want to go or not.The answer will always be YES.Even now and then I still follow wherever possible.I 'm like his shadow swaying and clinging to his shoulder.

Life as a mother of eight is very tough and stressful.Its just don't end there but goes on till maybe when they have their own family later.I have such high expectations on all of them, and I am always worried about everything.I think it's too normal for a mum to felt that way.